One of someone i respect the most had fallen in love

I think i'm the last one know about this big thing. After last lesson he told me i then realize that he looks really fallen in love with her. Finally, and finally, i'm happy for him.
As for me...
I plan go oversea study once graduate after long consideration. But unfortunately, due to my financial, this looks not really possible. Last night, my though came out an idea, why not go to bank to ask if there's study loan for foreign student? It'd be great if they can grant to help me...
I want to see how big this world is, i want to see how tall is Bill Gates, i want to see how high is Bill Gates's IQ and EQ, i want to see how big is his company and his house, i have many thing havent do yet, i dont want leave with regret...
Will my dream comes true one day? will i be able to reach my goal at the age 35 or earlier?Will i be able to see them again? When will i forget the one who hold an important palce in my heart? I have many question havent solve yet, Please dont judge me i'm the end.
Times flies, times changed so fast, people aroud us keep changing, our environment keep changing too, will i be able to adapt all this changed? Even she is changed. What are the things that will never change which I can entrust?
Bear with it, 3 months to go...