About me in Guang Zhou 1

12 Oct 2006, 9.20pm Guang Zhou

Today went to work as normal around 8.30am to continue Victor’s assignment to us. After lunch wuth Wei Wen and Wang Mi and came back to office. Xiao Xuan msn to me that ask us whether want go out with her. Aiks, our company’s flower take initiative action to ask us out with her, I can’t find a reason to say no. She said that Wing, our another company’s flower will come with us too since she’s free by the way, she said. On the other hand, we seems bring a lot trouble to Alpha that his home equipment getting problem one by one, sigh…

Tomorrow Amy will bring us to buy SIM card, I was keep telling myself that I really can’t wait to make a call to my parent’s and her. I really miss them badly…

After work and dinner with Eugene, we went to supermarket to buy some daily things. On the way back, I saw a woman who carrying her baby sitting near roadside to ask for money, looking at her face I can see that she’s sad, disappointed and want to give up but yet hug her baby tightly. My heart felt so sour looking at her but yet I can’t do anything.

When we came out from train, we found a vending machine which selling snacks , the price looks nice and everything ok but when we look up for more, we saw that it also selling condom and tissue, aiks, China anything can sell in any place out of my expect…

Day 2 in Guang Zhou

11 Oct 2006, 7:52pm, Guang Zhou

I woke up around 6.30am.

Looking at mirror, telling myself today is second day in Guang Zhou, though my emotion haven’t stable and settle down, but for the sake to my family and her, I’ll bear with it and lead a good happy life for this coming 4 months in Guang Zhou.

Today, Xiaoxian, my colleague, our company’s flower told me a lot about Guang Zhou and some jokes on msn, she is a funny and interesting girl, lol. Not only her, my another colleague Chuan Ming is a very friendly guy too, He tells me a lot of Guang Zhou’s geographic area and some interesting place of how to get there.

I’ve seen one of my colleague’s flash skill, she’s superb! She can draw out a very beautiful picture using electronic pen then make animation in flash just in short time. Amazing…

In the next 4 months, I believe I’ll explore out more about my company, my colleague’s skills and Guang Zhou so as I can learn from them.

Dad, mom, kor and her, I miss you all badly…

Miss Home

10 Oct 2006, 9.34, Guang Zhou

Yesterday was the first day I work in Guang Zhou. First day then I made a mistake. I realize that my block has different style in using toilet that they do not throw used toilet paper together with shit but separately that cause the toilet jammed. Alpha looks abit…. And ask somebody to repair and paid RMB200. I felt guilty and I told him I’ll pay for the fee, but he said it’s ok… I’ll be more careful and will ask Alpha before using any equipment in future.

Victor giving us our first assignment, Eugene and me can’t reach our final agreement, hope the next day would have a bit progress in it.

Around 12.30pm, we went to have lunch with our colleague , Chuan Ming and Amy. They brought us to a restaurant nearby our company, hm.. I really can’t adapt the food here for the time being.

After 6pm, we went home. I gave a call to Singapore just to hear my mom and dad voice for a while. I was actually wanted to talk to my brother through msn but he never online in the morning as usual. Then I aware that he brought mom to hospital for acupunctural. Maybe I’ve neither heard mom’s voice nor see them fro week, my heart feel so warm when I heard her voice, even just a short 1 minute on phone. She told me that her sick is getting better and not to worry so much. She want me to take good care of myself and must “guai guai” there. My tears suddenly pour out but I force to stop it…as I don’t want she know my feeling…to worry about me…How I wish to tell her I really miss home, her dish, my dad, my brother…Before I hung up call, I ask mom to pass message to dad that must take good care of him not to work till too tired. But my mom want me to talk to dad directly. When I heard my dad’s voice, my emotion can’t really control but I still try to control it. He first time tell me to take care of myself as he never say those thing, Then I really can see that he really care for me to say in words…I really can’t make it but to tell him to hung up call immediately or else he’ll know… I stand quietly at balcony alone to…

Sorry dad, mom for I can’t be by your side to take care of you for 4 months, sorry brother for I can’t attend your wedding party as your younger brother. I choose to go overseas just to hope can find a better job to take care of you in future, I’m sorry…

First Week of Sweet Life in Hong Kong

Before leaving off to Hong Kong, I didn't sleep overnight to talk to my brother and help him to do some video editing for his wedding party. I'm so sorry that I can't attend his wedding party as his younger brother... But i do send them my best bless for them, um! may you two happy forever.

We talk till 4.30PM then get ready to go to airport. My feeling was really nervous but excited as this is my first time take plane to go overseas. My family fetvh me to airport to see me off and meet Eugene.

Before boarding plane, we had several time check up on luggage by the officer at airport. The feeling was scary when the plane started to fly but after that, I feelng relax and looking outside the sky, wow, its amazing! Aiks, i felt abit dizzy after an hour but then I try to calm myself down for an hour....

About 10am+ we finally reach Hong Kong airport, as we wait for shutter bus to fetch us to airport once we step out from plane.

The first impression to reach Hong Kong is that the airport is really big and the frist cantonese i hear is "hun eng lei dou heung kong", Lucky i can speak cantonese as well phew~

We had another round of luggage check up and arrival checking for 30min. Before we went out the gate, i asked Eugene whether who is that will come fetch us to welcome us, um~~~ When we step out, I noticed a girl who in black shirt who talk on phone. My intuition tells me that it must be her who come fetch us, yea its her! Shes very nice and sweet to welcome us and talk in cantonese, she keep smilling that gave us a very good impression. :-D

She brought us all the way from airport to our hotel, on the way she keep introduce the places we going along.

After check in and put our luggage in our room, she waited for us at lobby to bring us to company to meet Carol who is one of our supervisor, her english really in US slang and i like it, she gave us a warm welcome to their company. At this time I felt really warm and it's my honour to join their company. She brought us to a restaurant to have tea break with Victor,Gilbert.

From the restaurant,I learnt the first lesson of Hong KOng culture, which there will ahve a gold spoon which is serve to get food to our plate but no using our spoon to get food.

After they setting us down to our seat in company, we had nothing to do for the first day, yet Carol is sitll very friendly to introduce us to all colleague and gave us orientation around the company.

We had a good sleep night for the first day as both of us really too tired and sleepy.

The next day morning, we were given our frist task assignment to work with Eugene and to present to Victor and Gilbert on Friday. After discussion with Eugene, we start to work on project from 5 Oct 1pm+ till 7pm to finish up a project. The project basically is to develop a E-Quiz system using jsp,servlet, database, XML and flash to do it. I'm in charge of background programming support to generate dynamic XML file for eugene to do his wokring on flash. It was quite nice team work.

During the presentation, each of us present our part of work to them. They were very satisfy and happy for our presentation and our project, Gilbert and Victor gave us comment and teach us how to use our skill to satify customer needs. A good lesson I learn from them. Sooner or later, our head of our department, Electronic Publishing, Mr Raymond get to know that we done a good job then come to us to congrats to us. We are so happy for that.

Erm... My colleage here are all so nice and everyday bring us to taste different food at different restaurent, the girls here even nicest to us, haha.

One of sweet girl show us her photo of Hong Kong she took and tell us alot of things about Hong Kong. I'm really impressed for their english really in US slang, yet still I prefer she speak cantonese, more sweet, lol

Today is Mid-Autumn Festival, I though Eugene and me would sleep in same room as celebration, But the sweet girl, Maggy take initiative to date us out tonight to ahve fun at Causeway Bay "Tong Lo Wan" to have "Bou Zai Mien", and "Bou Zai Fan" as this is Hong Kong famous local food. haha, Victor said he very jealous because got a prety and sweet girl date us out for outing, yay~

Overall, the people here treat us really nice and friendly and give us mooncake for us, so touched~~~

I miss home, I miss my mom, my dad, my brother. Sometime I even thhough someone call me then I though it was a call from my mom, but then it was just my imagination...Eugene said me I miss home too much le....

Happy Birthday

I do not want and wish this day coming again but it still come to approach me this year. I hope not to remember the day and how important it to me because it's meaningless.I don't know when i can welcome this day happily totally.
I'm happy to have some good friend remember and send their greets to me. Today, first message from anan, Qizhi, peijin,meiyun, and ...... :-) Vivian :-)
I prefer their b'day greets to me rather than physical present, because it's more sincere from their heart, and this is the most precious present to me. I'm really thanks to you all.
Having a meal together with my best and close buddy in this day is the most happiest hours. Though we all in silent mode and did not epress our feeling, but having meal togeher nad tlaking together is the most happiest thing to me.Maybe getting aged, What I need is not physical thing but friendhsip and accompany bah.
We're now maintaining good friend relationship. This is the most thing i feel so happy in her. Hope this thursday she won't put me aeroplane :-D yes!

One of someone i respect the most had fallen in love

I think i'm the last one know about this big thing. After last lesson he told me i then realize that he looks really fallen in love with her. Finally, and finally, i'm happy for him.
As for me...
I plan go oversea study once graduate after long consideration. But unfortunately, due to my financial, this looks not really possible. Last night, my though came out an idea, why not go to bank to ask if there's study loan for foreign student? It'd be great if they can grant to help me...
I want to see how big this world is, i want to see how tall is Bill Gates, i want to see how high is Bill Gates's IQ and EQ, i want to see how big is his company and his house, i have many thing havent do yet, i dont want leave with regret...
Will my dream comes true one day? will i be able to reach my goal at the age 35 or earlier?Will i be able to see them again? When will i forget the one who hold an important palce in my heart? I have many question havent solve yet, Please dont judge me i'm the end.
Times flies, times changed so fast, people aroud us keep changing, our environment keep changing too, will i be able to adapt all this changed? Even she is changed. What are the things that will never change which I can entrust?
Bear with it, 3 months to go...

My 9 years long hometown friend, my taget and ambition

I was so happy that my best hometown buddy came to singapore to visit me, its such a race cahnce that we really have not meet for a long time yet our closeness always that close.
I went to JB to bring him to SG because he dont know how to come to Singapore. We meet at City Square in JB. When i look at him, he's became more fragile and looks tired and thinner than before. It makes me pain heart.... All his expenses, transportation fee are on mine. I bring him to KFC have dinner then go back my home. We had logn chat throughout the night, we talk alot of our past events as well as during our secondary school days, its a good and sweet memory in ech of us. But time flies and eave a scare on our face that amke us wont looking back anymore but encourage each toher to walk forward. He send an resume and intent go to Vietnam looking for job, I help him on job application through email though I did not really encourage him to go but ... i respect his decision.
We did the "same thing, same activity" as what we did in m'sia last night till 3pm, argh~~ sleepy. We sleep together as if we're going back our past time , a buch of my buddies came to my home have karaoke and all sleep together and play together. Thats my true friendship, my best hometown friend.
The next day, we play games at home and have chat. We went downstair jogging together, I told him that It's such a excited feeling that I dont feel tired even we've jogged for over an hours, maybe because no one accompany me jogging toegther before and today its my best friend accompany me jogging, I dont feel tired at all.
I cheerish our friendship very much because we never have fight before as he ahs a very godo temper, whenever i got angry, he'd laugh at me then i laugh him back, haha. It's trustness that we believe each other, have such of feeling that can be trusted. He's the one who can read my mind, what i am thinking of. We've not chat for years but he can still make it, from then i knew that no one can substitute his place in my mind.
His faily has some difficulty, I do want try my ebst to him him but... He found out I have many expesive thing like handphone PDA, laptop and so on. He ask me if these I'm in used now...I dont knwo hwo to answer him back. He told me must know hwo to save money and dont be materialistic people and follow style go, do what we should do now. I feel bad after listening his words.From that time onwards, I promised hima nd myself I want change myself and do what I should do now.
We've promised each toher if in future, we have chance and sum of money, we'll run business together in KL or somewhere. Except him, who else can i trust? With his hardworking, and my IT knowledge, I believe we'll become a perfect team!
I also promised myself that I want to be one of top and best programmer in Singapore at the age of 35 or earlier to fulfil my first ambition.Hence, I wont give up any chance from now on and won;t be lazy anymore.
Haha, my true friend want me slim down my body and keep nagging me before he going abck m'sia, and so i promised him i'll change.
I bring him to bugis station for bus interchange to JB, on thw way we walking to the station to see him off, a kind of feeling sad that he's going off so soon.This apart does not mean we'll part forever, because I know we'll meet again very soon...take care, my best friend.

My daughter and my friends

Its amazing and felt happinese that I have a daughter. She so cute and I do feel so happy when i hug her.Her smile had melt my unhappy things behind me. Though she's been appearing in my dream for 2 times in one month, but I can feel that I'll have a daughter like her in future, as cute as her. No one can understand my feeling when my daughter calling me "daddy" and come to me...I seen my wife, but I can't remember her real face, everything is that real. If this is a wodnerful dream, i'd rather never want to wake up. Everything is nto important to me that I have my cute daughter and my loved wife.
One day, I rbing my daughter and my wife out for walking. I told my daughter my past and my ex.BY then, I meet my ex by chance outside, *i do not know why my ex is my maple good friend
Looking at her, we smile at each other. After we greet to each toher, i bring my daughter and wife continue walking.Everything as if a drama series that only happen in drama.Though i dont know if i'll have a daughter or not, but one thing I can sure to say that I'll be a good, responsible daddy and husband.

Back to my real life, so sad that one of my good female friend shooting at me. I really do have reason for not going. I do not know that she host the outing on the day that I really have lots of homework to do, and I can't finish it.When I know that my buddy ave meal separate with them then I think no mean going, anyway, it was raining heavily that time.
No one understand my feeling in my year 3 life. I really want to cry out under pressure. Suddenly many people are better than me especially in programming, i can't breath regularly, i can't found out the bright path as if i really lost.
I'm crying because I'll hardly to be with my buddies because if i really can't cope my study the time means I can't think of going out with friends. Getting good result is my first priority since my parents putting big bet on me and spend almost 30k on me just in 4 years.I can't let them down.
I'm crying because not much people talk to me in class, sitting alone quietly from morning till evening then going home, don't know what happen on the day like a corpse walking on street.
I'm trying my best to find my free time to be with my friends, my buddy, I'm really trying my best! I have nothing to say if my reason here can't satisfy your question.How am I going to face you during lecture?I treat you as one of my good friend and would coem to help you when you need help but only if you ask me.
Wc and stan asked me out go to arcade and pj also came. They felt bad ebcasue make me waiting and i'm nto coming for gaming. But in my heart, I do not mind because I finally have little time to relax down and happy with my buddy. My purpose going with them is not gaming but accompany them and talk with them.I do not want my distance with my buddy getting longer or ahve barrier between us.
Qi Zhi! read carefully!, I promised you to updated my blog lar! dont always blame me never update. Forgive me for i seldom writing my blog, I got to prepare for my next lesson because my lecturer want us to prepare before going their lecture else will shooting us. Thats all my latest update and my feeling. -End-

The first day of year 3 life

Today is 17 of april, it's the first day of my year 3 life started onwards. First lesson started at 12pm, I was worried that i'll have no one to talk to but never did i expect i amde 2 friends today, his name is Richmond and Cyndy. Though the first day we nto really close, but i believe we'll be good classmate/friends in year 3.

I found out that Richmond is also a mapler then we started talk about maple story i lesson, its fun that i have topic to talk to him. On the other hand, Cyndi is a comic addictor, she can read comic quietly alone for 2 horus, amazing~ she also looks not bad oh!

Today i have ICT project management and real time enterprise. It just such stress and terrible that i've never touch the topic before and the real time module talk more in-depth on web server adn web services, which i've never heard before, i became stress and all concentrate listening on lesson till 6pm.

After 6pm, me and richmond go to bookshop buy lecture notes and walk off separately. I meet stan, wc, pj, angela, lc, qz at atrium and go to amk s11 having dinnner together. It's a nice and funny meal, maybe we've been one months never sitting togeher having meal together, futhermore, we'll have less chance can sitting together laugh together.

One of my buddy upset, i dont know how to console him but try to accompany him and sitting with him to give him support because i can understand his feeling as i faced this before.

I hope my year 3 life can be easier and getting along very well with my new classmate. Undeniable that year 3 study life will be more stressful than before and enw challenge, i'm prepared to face it. Yes!

Someone who i am thinking of

Sitting on chair and glue to computer in my room at 12am. It's a feeling of lonely surfind and writting blog.I'm really tired of living under single life, but what can i do?
I've survived on earth for 23 earth.Apart from my family. There's two person who's always on my mind.It's my past and another is my buddy.
My friend/classmates always want me to forget my past and let bygone be bygone.It's not easy to forget someone totally from my mind, I admit she's my past for 2 years. But sometimes when i think of it,I'd regret and sad because it me myself who destroy it, she left me with anther guy in the end...At that time, without her, my life is meaningless.Today, i can only pray for her to have a happinese love with someone else in deep of my mind.Though you're my past, our history but our story,i'll always bear in mind as a lesson that i'll never ever repeat.Thanks and sorry...
Today,I falled for another girl, we have fate to know each other but we're not destined to be together, maybe we've different perspective in our life and pathway.She reject me after telling me her reason. I accept it. I'll always pray for her. Times flies, we've known each other for years that we have a stable friendship though not relationship in love. I'm elated enough to have a good female friend. Sometimes, waiting for her may be inappropriate at the time, we may meet right person while we're progressing in our study. Let everything handle to heaven to decide. Undeniable, I'm willing take care of her all my life no matter what REASON even if she understand what i say and if our story can be continue.Maybe this is just a dream.
We'll be hardly meet each other from now on cause of something. This maybe called life cycle that we'll meeting different people around us for us to learn from them and prepare for the net challenge. I just have a small wish that I don't want to go alone, I wish to have someone go on with me, who is she? where is she..
First week of school holiday just past, I wonder what am i doing last week. I'm doing nothing but mapling all week that cause my eye hurt and unfeeling well. I shall stop it and start my own thing at the right time.
God, i don't ask too much. I just don't want to be alone all the way, please...